months have gone by,
do you dare address
how i have tried?
now i am a mess.
should i keep longing
or sit full of tact?
admit to a loss
that i never quite had?
no i will not
this isn’t “my bad.”
no one do i owe,
no place i should go.
an empty pursuit,
no more room left to grow.
but from this lust shed,
i think i now know.
you dragged me down
and melted like snow.
i should be wet
soaked now with tears;
instead, i feel free
from all of my fears.
you were an ember,
caught in my palms.
now you have burned
through all of my alms.
I curse this obsession,
this foolish desire,
for it has consumed me
and set me on fire.
once my companions,
fire and ice,
now stand below me,
a faded old vice.
now, alive i can feel
but can is not do
please can they save me
for all this is new.
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